Ok, yea this entry is a tad early but I figured I'd write something now while I have a lot on my mind. 2006...what a year. For some it was good for some it was bad, as for me, it was quite the learning experience. First off, the new year started rough with Kimlo's car getting stolen on my birthday. That situation pretty much ruined my day due to the fact that we had to stress about the insurance, the cops, theft recovery etc. Ok, so a minor bump in the road to a supposed "great" year, but we wouldn't let that get us down...2006 promised great success for our group called K9M. Our plans included car shows, a rise in sales and marketing, track days, drag races, etc. Did any of that come? Nah..Turns out the majority of us found other things to look forward to and went our separate ways no matter how hard we tried to keep it together. Even I admit that I was quite distracted from my goal of exposing our tight knit crew across SoCal. From there came the drama that would pretty much split the group up and eventually lead to the current status of K9M. Although caused by others, I truely admit that I had my hand in creating much of that drama. I am truely sorry that many people were hurt by the situations that occured but I guess it was inevitable considering the kind of people we are. K9M is pretty much no more. I will always rock the name regardless if anybody else cares because if it ever meant anything to anyone, it was definately me. Since there is no more "crew" I have decided to do things on my own because obviously, it is my life. My passion for cars is still strong and I am in the process of trying to fullfill my dream of becoming a great driver like my old friend and mentor Tim K. Eventually in 2007, I am going to finally pay off much of my debt and save up towards something a little different. (Going to change it up a bit) Hopefully all goes as planned. So what is the point of this vague and poorly discriptive blog? I guess it is to help me get my thoughts out about how I have grown as a person this past year. I've finally learned that I cannot depend on everybody, even people I would like to consider close friends, to be as considerate of other people's feelings as I am because nobody was raised like me. I grew up always trying to look after people, always giving a helping hand, always making other people happy. While I have met a select few who have returned the favor, many have taken advantage of my kindness and eventually turned it into my weakness. I lost a few good friends trying to figure that out...but I guess that was the only way I was able to learn to let go. I have also caught myself lying to...myself! Seriously now that I look back, that was the dumbest thing I have ever done. All it brought me was pain, suffering, and a handfull of problems that I did not need or should not have got into. Finding that out makes me less vulnerable to being the "nice guy" but that sure was a very painful lesson. It is almost a shame that I have to change my attitude towards people because of the events this past year but it must be for the better. Times are changing and the only way to survive in the world is to change with it. Old fashioned ways are obsolete so new ones must be adapted to keep my sanity. Bottom line is, I have finally learned to make myself happy before I make others happy. Now do not get me wrong. I will always be a gentleman to every person I meet, it's like encoded in my DNA or something. But from now on, I will not help people out at the cost of my own responsibility and happiness. | 
